so it’s been ages since I’ve actually been on here and wrote something, i usually just post lots of pictures cause it sums up my life, but today I’m going to write. i may not have much to say, but starting… college, wtf. I’m so stressed, and concerned. what if i don’t get accepted to one of my choices, whats going to happen? I’m going to be stuck in canton going to school craft, what a joke. all because my freshman year i fucked up badly and got a 2.67. and then junior year i get a 3.83. you can tell i tried real hard freshman year, not. thank you Whitney for fucking up your accumulative. i pretty much thought high school was a joke, obviously not.. it’s what determines where you are going in life.
OK, so now currently i am considering going into early childhood education cause I’m taking this class called kiddie campus, and i love little kids, they are so sweet and adorable and they just simply make my day. well anyways, i was at a college visit today, and they told my the class I’m taking which takes up two hours of my day.. for the whole year isn’t that important and they don’t look highly of it. UM. awesome, good thing that’s what i want to be so shouldn’t it be taken into consideration that’s what i wanna do for the rest of my life, its pretty much the best high school experience for me if that’s what i wanna be but okay, thanks a lot.. I’m so glad I’m wasting my time. and not only that, i don’t really have any good things to look at besides my junior year grades, i mean, yeah i’m on the gymnastics team, and i have a job, but i have no community service or volunteer hours, so i should probably get on that.
and on top of that, what i want to be? it changes every three days, i mean it goes back to somethings like a nurse, or an anesthesiologist, but something tells me it’s not good if what i want to major in changes daily. I’m going to be one of those people who go to college and change their major eight times before i find it. no money wasted there, JOKE.
and now, my best friend has been ignoring me for a few days, and i don’t have an idea in the world why… i mean we are best friends, shouldn’t she tell me why shes “mad” i guess not, so here i am pretending i don’t care when really I WANT TO KNOW more than anything, just tell me, what if it’s a misunderstanding? and your sitting here pissed at me for no reason. she doesn’t read this, so there is probably no point in saying all of this buut, i needed to vent.
tonight. i wanted to see Alex, go out to dinner, even though i don’t eat, and see a movie, but nowwwwwwwww my manager insists i work. and i feel bad saying no, and i feel like she will hate me if i say no, so i always say yes, and i haven’t told him, mainly because i cant find my cell phone. :( you think my days bad? it gets even better. so it’s been pouring all day, and i walk in between schools, kinda like a college, yeaah.no fun at all, and i didn’t bring my umbrella, so here i am… drenched, and with wet boots slipping on the tile, so embarrassing.
and i have a dilemma. tomorrow is my mom;s boyfriends sons daughters birthday, and we are going to domino’s farms, at like ten in the morning till one, and then i work from 2-6 and there is a whalers game at 630, she already bought me a ticket.. and now i just got offered a homecoming ticket for tomorrow and it starts at 7. how does this work? it doesn’t. i wanna go to the homecoming, even though i already went to one, it was sooooo much fun, and i would love to go again. buttt I’m afraid she’s going to be pissed, cause it’s for a birthday party, and i already said i was going, and she bought a ticket. so what do i do?fml.
well enough bitching, I’ve had a shitty day, and now i shall nap. and then go out with some friends, hopefully it gets better.
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